Buhay Europa..

7:15 am ngayon dito.

Sabi sa TV, 9°C daw ang temperature ngayong umaga. Maximum na ang 14°C hanggang mamayang gabi.

Di ka pwedeng lumabas ng bahay na dalawang patong lang ang suot. Tinry ko kahapon, naiyak ako sa sobrang lamig. So bumalik ako ng bahay at nagdagdag ng dalawang patong. Di ka masyadong makakagalaw pero at least di ka naginginig sa lamig.

Masarap ang food dito. Binigyan ako ng dad ko ng 5 euros na baon kahapon. Naubos lang sa käse krainer at knabber nossi.

Ang tatangkad ng mga Austrian. Nanliliit ako. Literally. May nakasabay ako sa bus, hanggang bewang lang niya ko. Hindi pa siya naka stand upright nung lagay na yun. No kidding. Kung sa Filipino standards eh considered as abnormally short na ko for my age, pano pa kaya dito? ;p
Artistahin ang mga tao dito. Normal lang sa kanila yun, I guess. Sa atin kasi, pag matangos ka, maputi, at matangkad, more often than not, eh considered as maganda/gwapo ka diba? Halos lahat sila dito ganun.

Mejo nabobore ako pag pumapasok sa work ang parents ko at nasa school si Joshua dahil walang masayadong magawa dito sa bahay. Pwede naman ako manood ng TV pero di ko naiintindihan dahil naka dub sa German halos lahat (except CNN, BBC World at MTV). Pati spongebob squarepants (spongebob schwamkopf ang tawag sa kanya dito which means spongbob sponge head pag tinranslate at ang pangalan ni squidward eh hindi squidward kundi thaddeus..ang weird noh?).

Nakakapag German naman ako pero konti lang. As in konti. Alam ko mag greet ng tao (Grüß gott!); alam ko bumili ng pagkain, alam ko ipakilala sarili ko; alam ko din kung pano sabihing "laging mabilis magturo ang Math teacher ko kaya hindi ko naiintindihan yung lesson".

Madaming Pinoy dito. Kahit san naman madami talaga tayo diba? So hindi na ko masyadong na hohome sick. Eto siguro ang first time na nagpunta ko sa Europe na hindi ako na homesick.

Masaya dito. Di lang dahil malamig, masarap ang food, at nakaktuwang tignan ang mga tao. Masaya dito dahil nandito ang family ko. Sa inyo siguro normal lang na gumising sa umaga at makita ang buong family niyo bago sila pumasok sa work o sa school. Sakin bihira mangyari yun. Paminsan minsan ko lang din naihahatid sa school ang kapatid ko. Kahit di na niya kailangan dahil malaki na siya, gusto ko pa din gawin kasi parang bonding time na din namin yun. Ayoko na bumalik ng Pilipinas. Kung pwede lang eh bakit hindi diba? Kaso bayad na tuition fee ko. Haha. Sayang naman diba? Tsaka one year na lang titiisin ko bago ko magstay dito for good. Konti na lang yun.

For now, enjoy na lang muna ng vacation. I hope you're having a good one, too.

It's a good thing I was wrong..

I can't waste time by moping around anymore. Misery sucks so, from now on, I'll just concentrate on the things that make me happy.

The Austrian Embassy finally decided to grant me my visa so I'm leaving on Monday at 12:20 a.m. I am so looking forward to this trip because I miss my family so much. I haven't seen my mom and my brother for two years and my dad for four months. Another reason why I'm psyched about this trip is that my parents promised to take me to Italy, Hungary, and Germany this year. If we have time, I might get to see France and Greece as well. As a European Studies major, I'm really interested in visiting the places that we've been discussing inside the classroom plus I really love to travel plus plus it's cold there. Right now, I'm so busy shopping for pasalubong, making last minute arrangements, organizing my luggage (it's the O.C in me, I can't help it), blahblahblah that I barely have time for much else (I just took a break to check my mail and got sidetracked by my blog and stepheniemeyer.com).

My braces have finally been taken off (after four years). I'm not really too happy about this because I like my braces but I just felt like sharing the info. Hehe.

My third term grades are also a cause of happiness for me right now because they are much better than I expected. I'm quite happy with my grades. (word of advice: as much as possible, don't break up with anyone on finals week because it will drive you nuts. Take my word for it.).

I thought this was going to be a really awful summer. It turns out I was wrong. Thank God for that.

Break-up Notes

Break ups are never easy. No matter how many times I try to delude myself into thinking that I’m glad that it’s over, it never works. I can’t help but feel bad about it (as any normal person should, I guess). I’m trying my best to act all normal and happy. Most of the time, it works. But there are moments all throughout the day when I just stop in the middle of whatever I’m doing (be it homework, chores, walking down the street, reporting in front of the whole class, and other stuff like that) and try to suppress the hollow feeling inside my chest. I wake up in the morning hoping to feel better and then I remember that sickening empty feeling again and my day goes off to a bad start. And then there are the memories. You know when you see a particular object or walk past a particular place and it just strongly reminds you of that particular person? Yeah, I have that right now. It seems silly for my eyes to well up at the sight of a Batangas Star Express bus, but they do. I’m a very emotional person and the smallest things could trigger my tear ducts. Which is stupid, I know, but I can’t help it. That’s just the way I am. I easily get attached to people so when the time to let go comes, I find it very hard to say goodbye. This most recent heartache is the least of my problems, really, but it’s the one that bugs me the most. I’m facing so many more pressing problems right now and I just want to let go of the grief. I’m so tired of crying and feeling bad already. It’s just got to stop.

Being the moody person that I am, I can swing from pessimism to optimism in the drop of the hat. Either I’m completely losing it (again) or I’ve developed a mild case of bipolar disorder. I suppose there is a bright side to all this. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, right? I certainly hope so.

I can't stop listening to this song. I'm addicted.

Forget About Me (Lil Bit)

You said, it wasn't gonna be like it was before.
Then it happened again.
Pushing me back out the door.
Thought it would be for real this time.
Love made me forget about the signs.
So now what do i do?
Now that I know that we're through.

Refrain:
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
If this how you want it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Too late, sorry.
I didn't have the chance
You said you were happy
Baby, I don't understand
Gave you everything you asked for
And was ready to give you a lot more
I would've given you the world
Right in the palm of your hand.

Refrain

Chorus

Boy, my heart was true
And that you can't deny
Don't be a fool
And walk away from all the lies
It's up to you
'Coz heaven knows I've tried
Tell me you're still in love.

Chorus

Forget about me
I really love you.