My Bee and his Family

I met Bugoy’s family today. At first I was really anxious because this is the first time that a boyfriend has introduced me to his whole family so I was really scared that they might not like me or something like that but all my worries were in vain because Bugoy’s family is really, really nice. They are all very bubbly and friendly and not at all “nakaka-O.P” like I feared they would be. His eldest ate even bought me a Spongebob stuffed toy! How nice is that? Very.

We had lunch at the Grilla in Promenade and his family asked me some questions about myself and about me and Bugoy and we talked about some other stuff as well. I really had a lot of fun.

The best part of today was, of course, getting to see Bugoy. The thing with long distance relationships is that you don’t get to see each other as often as you’d like to so you have to make the most out of every moment that you’re together. He and I didn’t chatter much because we do that all the time over the phone and the internet but that’s ok, I was really contented with hugging him and holding his hand, you know, the kinds of things that we don’t usually get to do. I miss him already. I started missing him as soon as they dropped me off here at the dorm. I’m so looking forward to the day when he and I don’t have to be too far apart from each other.

He gave me a ring today. It’s never gonna leave my finger.

I’m so happy. I mean really, really, really happy. Thank you, Bugoy, for being the reason.

I love you so much, bee!

Twilight

It was love at first sight with this book. I went to the Powerbooks store in MOA to buy a gift for a friend. I was browsing through the Young Adult section when the cover of one particular book caught my eye: a vividly red apple resting on some of the palest hands that I ever laid eyes on. It's called Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. I just had to pick it up. I read the blurb at the back and it made me really want to read the book. It's about a girl who falls head over heels in love with an impossibly gorgeous vampire who is after her blood. I just HAD to read it. But I had to let go of the book because I only brought enough money to buy my present. The really weird thing about me is that I get what I'd like to call "book cravings". I simply would not rest until I read the book that I'm craving for, so to speak. So I returned to MOA the next day and bought Twilight. I finished it in 2 days. It is one of the most compelling books that I have ever read. It is now my favorite love story. Next to A Walk to Remember, of course. I love books. I really, really like to read so I've read quite a lot of books but very few of them have had this kind of effect on me. I really, really recommend that you read it. You won't regret it, I promise! Next agenda, hunt for a copy of the sequel, New Moon (After all my final exams, that is). If you happen to spot a copy anywhere, please tell me.

Sabaw Blog

It’s pre-hell week at DLSU-M.
Less than two weeks of school left so we’re cramming in as much work as possible.
Everything is just so crazy.
I have so much to do that it’s hard to decide where to start.
Kaya magbblog muna ko. Hehehe.
Konting tiis na lang matatapos din ‘to.
Isipin ko na lang, kailangan mag exert ng effort para naman di aku luluha sa course card day diba.
Buti na lang inspired ako ngayon.
Yiheee.

^_^

To all my fellow LaSallians, Godspeed. Malapit na termbreak! Yey!

Finally

After 11 months of relentless “pagmumukmok”, I am happy again. Really, truly, genuinely, walking on air happy.

Despite the fact that I’ve practically sworn off men since my last ex broke up me, I found myself unexpectedly falling for someone and guess what? He’s my boyfriend now!

December 1, 2007: I officially became Bugoy’s girlfriend. And I am so effing happy that I could just cry. So happy. Since January 2007, I never thought I’d fall in love again but there you go. I am so in love and I am so happy. This is the best feeling in the world.

Out of all the guys who courted me, Bugoy was the only who managed to prove that he’s dead serious with me. Not that the others didn’t try but Bugoy is the only one that I really feel comfortable with. He’s funny. He’s really sweet. He’s thoughtful. He’s kind and caring. And it also doesn’t hurt to mention that he’s cute. Hehe. He’s sensitive to my feelings and he makes me feel special and loved. I haven’t felt like that since who knows when. I am just sooooo happy. Thank you, Bugoy, for making me feel this way. You are truly a blessing and I hope I get to keep you forever.

To my last ex. You know who you are. I have no idea if you know how much you hurt me but I just want you to know that I learned a lot because of you. So, despite everything, I’m still somehow thankful for you. I’m finally moving on and I can finally be happy for you. I hope this is the last time that I will ever mention you. I wish you all the best.

To my Hubby:

Thank you for making me happy. You really are my guardian angel. I’m looking forward to making this work with you. I love you.

Mga bagay bagay na walang kinalaman sa isa't isa..

It's common knowledge that I easily get bored which is why I almost never stay put in one place. I guess that's why I got some messages and a call yesterday from people who wanted to make sure that I wasn't in Glorietta2 when the explosion happened. Thank God I wasn't and nobody that I know got hurt. Thanks for the concern.

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Two new discoveries:

• Starbucks' green tea and berry cheesecake (it kinda sounds weird but it's really, really, really good, i promise..)

• Cerealicious' Pirates of the Cadbury Fan (may cerealicious pala sa animo noh? i just found out the other day..hehe..)

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International chismis:

A female politician in Germany is thinking of passing some law wherein all marriage contracts wil expire every seven years. Those who wish to renew their contracts may do so but those who have had it with their spouses may opt not to renew. She's proposing it as an alternative to divorce, I think.

What will they come up with next?

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I hate getting sick. Sore throat. Cough. Colds. Headache. What's even suckier is that I can't take medicines because I'm allergic. Everytime I tell people this, they seem startled. I used to think it was a common allergy but I guess it's not. Erm. Is it? I'm not sure. I only know one other person who has the same allergies as me. Don't ask who.

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Midterms na! Let's not forget Sir Pedro's (POLIGOV) reminder before exams:

"You may look upwards in contemplation, downwards in consternation, but never sidewards in desperation.."

Haha.

Happy exam week, fellow LaSallians.. ^^,

Cheesecake..

I'm busy again.
Yey!
I like it this way.
Especially since Oct. 21 is looming nearer and nearer.
Followed, of course by Oct. 22-24.
It's times like this when I sincerely wish that I didn't have such a good photographic memory.
I'd really rather not remember but I can't help it.
Memories are haunting me not only when I'm awake but they've actually started penetrating my dreams.
One whole week of dreaming about someone that I don't even wanna dream about anymore.
Hirap na hirap na ko.
Di ko na alam gagawin ko.
I'm so effing lost.
Bakit parang lahat ng tao sa paligid ko masaya?
Am I missing something here?
I guess I was absent when they taught the formula for happiness in school.
I'm trying my best to be happy.
Really.
Ayoko na.
Pagod na pagod na ko.
Gusto ko na din maging masaya.
Ang tanong..
Pano ba?

Tooooot..

I’m bored.
Again.
I don’t have PHILFOR today so I only have Spanish which won’t start until 2:40.
I’ve done all my homework.
Did as much advanced reading as I can.
Organized photos.
Organized my closet.
Cleaned up a little bit.
Sorted the messages in my phone.
I’ve got nothing else to do.

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Ayaw mag upload ng pics sa multiply at sa friendster.
Bakit ganun?

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I went to Tagaytay and Los Banos with my aunts, uncles, and cousins last Friday.
It was fun.
Although when we stopped right outside the Makiling Botanical Gardens, I almost had a heart attack.
Dammit.

Checked out Ayala Greenfield Estates because my unlce's wife's brother (figure it out..nyahaha) just bought 700 square meters of property there.

It's really, really, really nice.

I especially liked the infinity pool.

And the view is awesome.

At 1 million pesos per 100 square meters dapat lang nice sha diba.

Hehe.

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Spent most of Saturday and Sunday in Pampanga because it was Ate Camille’s birthday.
The resort that they rented was really nice.
I’ll post pics on multiply as soon as I can upload.
Great food.
Kare-kare, sugpo, caldereta, roast beef, crabs, chicken bbq, etc, etc..
Yummmmm.

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Shempre kung san san nanaman aku nakakarating ng di alam sa bahay namin diba.

Di naman kasi nila tinatanong kung nasan aku, so I didn't bother telling them.

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Nakakaaliw magdrive si Yasmeen.
Parang nasa roller coaster lang kami.

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Ang boring dito.
I wanna go home.

Animo Overload...

We’re back. We’re one. WE’RE NUMBER ONE.

Today, classes from 4 pm onwards were cancelled to give way to what turned out to be one of the most kick ass victory parties ever. It was hard not to get caught up in the unabashed display of LaSallian pride what with my schoolmates donning outfits in the official school colors of green and white; and green and white balloons, DLSU clappers, and DLSU bandanas being waved all over the place. There was a thanksgiving mass. There was free-flowing food (although my friends and I weren’t able to eat because there were just too many people, I saw banners from Lydia’s Lechon, Krispy Kreme, Pizza Hut, Dairy Queen, Taco Bell, and so on). There was a parade of athletes; a program hosted by Iya Villania, Sharon Yu, and some alumni; and a culminating concert. I didn’t spot a single frown in the crowd, everybody was just so happy. Which is what winning a men’s basketball championship does to people, I suppose. Wuhooooo!

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Here are just some of the highlights of today’s activities:

• The Gary V song (could someone who was there please tell me what the title of that song is? It’s really nice.)
  
• LSDC Street’s first dance (Again, could someone give me the title of that song?)
  Ty Tang’s speech
  
• Coach Franz Pumaren, Rico Maierhofer, and Cholo Villanueva dancing on stage (I just realized that Villanueva is much cuter in person than he is on TV..hehe..)
  
• The whole LaSallian community being told what “o-omegahin” means
  
• Simon Atkins’s shirt almost being stripped off in front of the whole school
  
• The athletes thanking the LaSallian community for their wholehearted support all throughout the first half of the 70th UAAP season
  
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  Host: “When we won our last game against Ateneo, Coach Franz said that ‘in this case, two is greater than three’. Just a few days after that, he and the team went on to prove that two is greater than fourteen.”
  
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  "All our defeats..
  All our victories..
  We lift them up to You.."

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Party at The Prince of Jaipur in Taguuig tomorrow and Embassy on Saturday. Free admission daw for LaSallians. Just show your school ID.

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Of course, men’s basketball isn’t the only sport in the UAAP. Congratulations to the Woodpushers, Tankers, Judokas, Jins, Paddlers, Beach Volleyball players, and all the other teams who competed in the first half of the UAAP season 70. We’re equally proud of you guys. (Insert applause here.) And good luck to the Fencers, Netters, Booters, Spikers, Batters, and all the other teams who will compete in the second half. Go, La Salle!

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Despite all the criticisms from all the bitter people out there, it feels good to be a LaSallian.

I’ve seen how we’ve embodied unity, loyalty, and school spirit and it makes me even more proud to be a part of the La Salle family.

We’re back. We’re one. WE’RE NUMBER ONE.

Animo La Salle!

Again, for the nth time, once more...

A year ago today, I got Johnry the 2nd, Kat Jr., and Moogle through LBC.

So, technically, it's their first birthday.

That's why I got them out of the closet.

After today, they're going back there.

Although am seriously considering donating them to some children's foundation where they could make a kid happy instead of making me feel miserable.

I'll think about it.

Feliz compleanos..

Alles gute zum geburtstag..

Maligayang bati..

Happy Birthday, my dear dogs..

systematisierter Wahn..

I was watching the news last night when I heard that some sort of bomb went off near SLU and that some students got hurt. My initial reaction was to worry. It was like my heart jumped up to my throat. Paranoia kicked in. What if he was one of the people who got hurt? I hoped he was ok. I had to make sure so, since I don’t have his number anymore, I texted one of his friends. When I didn’t get a reply, I texted his sister to ask her if he was ok. It turns out that he was. Ok, I mean. After not hearing from him for who knows how long, he texted me to assure me that he was fine. It was a huge relief to know that he was safe. He and I have not spoken to each other for quite some time now. It’s like we’re strangers to each other because he’s got this whole other life now. I, on the other hand, have been trying my best to put myself back together since January and I’d like to think that I’ve been fairly successful. I really am starting to forget about him and everything that happened between us or at least trying my best not to think about the memories and the person with whom I created them. But when I heard the news last night, I couldn’t help but worry. Despite the resentment that I feel for him, I wouldn’t want anything bad to happen to him. I still care for him. I don’t think it’s something that will go away easily. I will always care for him. We did, after all, share a special bond even if it was just for a brief period of time.

On a totally different note…

We won against Ateneo last Sunday! Of course, everybody already knows about this. I just felt like putting it on my blog. ADMU may have won more games than us but what’s important is that we won against them when it mattered the most. Congratulations, Green Archers! Tomorrow’s the first championship game against UE. Lotsa luck to us. Animo La Salle!

Ich Liebe Es..

I said "devaluate" in IPOLECO yesterday. Is that even a word? The professor asked us what countries with balance of payment defecits would do to increase their export revenue if a fixed exchange rate did not exist. The answer is that they devalue their currency. But I said devaluate instead of devalue.I don't think the professor noticed though cause he said "correct!". Still, it's kinda embarassing.

I wish my parents had let me shift during frosh year. It would have saved us a lot of time and money. Anyways, it doesn't really matter anymore, does it? What does matter is that I enjoy going to school again because I'm really interested in all my subjects. I'm only takingfour subjects this term and all of them are majors: IPOLECO (International Political Economy), EURHIST (European History), PHILFOR (Introduction to Philippine Foreign Policy Analysis), and SPANONE (Spanish One). I absolutely love, love, love my course now.

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We lost to Ateneo by a point today. Darn. This coming Sunday's game ought to be really interesting. TY Tang was awesome today. So was Chris Tiu. Amf.

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The new coca-cola commercial is really cute.
"Give a little love and it all comes back to you..."

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I miss my family. Seven more months before I see them again. I can hardly wait.

I survived September 23..

Today is my maternal grandmother's 70th birthday. We celebrated it yesterday. The whole family threw her a party at the KC Hall in San Jose City, NE. She had around three hundred guests. My lola is fairly well known in our province because she's very active in community service stuff.I was supposed to give a speech yesterday but the program got messed up no thanks to some people who came two hours late (!!!) so we just did away with my speech. Here's what I would have said:

"I lived with my lola for six years before I moved to Manila and if there's one thing that I could say about her, it is that she possesses a very generous spirit. She is one of the most selfless people that I know. Whatever she has, she shares with the people around her. This is the trait that I admire most about her. If not for her generosity, me and my family wouldn't be where we are today. She has helped so many people and touched so many lives that it is no wonder that all the blessings that she has shared are coming back to her. Mommy, God knows the desires of your heart and whatever these are, I hope that Hefulfills them. May you have more birthdays to come and may you continue to be a blessing to others. Love you, Mommy! Happy Birthday."

Too bad I didn't get to say it. Try to be punctual next time, people! When we say 3:30, we don't mean 5:30!

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Belated kwento:

My 5 aunts from my mom's side, my lola's sister, my cousin, his girlfriend, and I went to Cebu and Bohol lat September 15. We stayed in Bohol for 2 nights andwe spent 1 night in Cebu. We went back to Manila on September 18 (yeah, I know, I skipped school). That was my first time in the Visayas. Bohol is one of the best places that I've been to so far.It's so clean and peaceful. We went to eat at a floating restaurant in Loboc river, we went to see the chocolate hills,we saw a man-made forest, my companions went to the the biggest python in captivity (I'm ophidiophobic so I just stayed at the souvenir shop), and, of course, a trip to Bohol would not be complete without seeing Tarsiers (so cute!). My aunts rented a beach front bungalow in Panglao so the first thing that I saw when I woke up in the morning was a white sand beach. It was awesome. On our second day in Bohol, my aunts and I took a 1 hour boat ride to the island next to ours, Balicasag. It was a terrifying trip because it was quite windy and rainy so the waves were pretty big but we made it alive so I'm not complaining.Balicasag has a marine life sanctuary so we went snorkeling. Guess what, I found Nemo! There were fishes of every imaginable color and varying sizes. I evensaw a blue starfish. It was one of the coolest things that I've ever seen in my life. After lunch, we set out to return to Panglao. But we made a quick stopat a sand bar in the middle of the sea. I know, I've this a lot in this entry but let me say it again, it was so cool. The next day, we went to Cebu where we went to see Magellan's cross, went to a dried mango factory, went to the dried fish market, and so on. I could go on an on and on about thisvacation so I'll just shut up about it now. There are photos on my multiply site if you wanna see them: kitekat.multiply.com.

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It was September 23 yesterday. Grr. Rawr. And AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!

At least I didn't spontaneously combust like I thought I would.

Great.

Counting Down...

September 12.

I'll be nineteen in a few hours.

Darn.

I don't think my 18th year was wasted, though.

I had a lot of fun.

I made mistakes.

I learned.

I've done a bit of growing up thanks to all the tough sh*t that I had to go through.

I've been a total wreck but I've managed to pull myself together just in time.

It's been one heck of a roller coaster ride.

But, to use a hackneyed phrase, "I've only just begun".

I am barely skimming the surface of harsh reality of life.

At least I'm getting plenty of practice for when I have to face even tougher sh*t in the future.
I'm not complaining.

Why should I?

Despite everything, I am very blessed: great family, awesome friends, good school, and so on.

I have plenty to be thankful for.

God is good to me and that's all there is to it.

I hope my 19th year in this world is as interesting as the last one.

CHEERS..

I love September.

I'm turning nineteen in twelve days' time.

A lot of my friends and family will be celbrating their birthdays this month as well.

It was during this month last year when I inadvertently ruined my own life. But whatever. That's supposed to be water under the bridge now.

August was a lot fun.

Making the most out of my eighteen-dom and freedom and whatnot.

This has been a jampacked week.

Greenhills with my roommates last Wednesday. (Where we got free Krispy Kreme doughnuts and an impromptu tour of the KK kitchen where they taught us how to makes doughnuts. Yey!)

Serendra and Market! Market! with roommates last Thursday where I discovered that I have a fascination for waterfalls. Don't ask. Then Coal at Harbor Square later that night. Good times.

MOA with college friends yesterday then MOA again later that night with roommates. Coal again afterwards with roommates and their friends.

Time for a bit of rest now.

I'm going home.

I'll probably sleep the whole term break.

Happy first of September to y'all.

At random..

I attended a Philosophy lecture yesterday. Something about the philosophy of culture. I wouldn’t have gone if it wasn’t a requirement for PHILPER . The speaker, Mr Centeno, is an assistant professor at the Department of Philosophy in Saint Louis University in Baguio City. He started off his lecture by greeting us in Ilocano and Pangasinense. I only understood the former. It was an ok lecture. He showed us pictures of SLU. Tralalalala.

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I went on a food trip with my aunt, uncle, and cousins today. There is some sort of bazaar near the Lung Center of the Phlippines every Sunday. The products range from the edible to the wearable to the cuddly (pets for sale). The food was awesome. We had Ilocano empanada. (The genuine kind. The kind that I go to Ilocos for almost every holy week.) I had churros. And my cousins and I discovered cheesecake pops. May I just say that whoever came up with the idea of putting New York Cheesecake on a popsicle stick and then covering it with chocolate is a certified genius. I ended up eating two. It was well worth 70 pesos per piece. I may have to go back there next Sunday for another one of those. They’re really, really, really goooood.

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After the food trip, we went to Greenhills.

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After Greenhills, we went to the First Philippine International Motor Show at the World Trade Center.

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I am in love with the Mitsubishi Eclipse GT. Ma and Pa, my birthday is coming up. I am of driving age now. I have been for more than two years now. Ehem. Ehem.

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After that we ate at a restaurant in Binondo. I forgot the name. But the food was great.

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I love food. I really do. It’s a darn shame that I gain weight easily so I have to control my eating. I envy people who can eat whatever they want without worrying about weight gain and all.

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I miss my high school friends. Hanging out with May, Nicky, and DR last Friday was über fun. I hope we can do it again soon. Those guys are some of the nicest friends that a person could hope for.

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I’m bored. I should be doing my Math homework but I don’t know where to start.

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Finals week is coming up. I should start panicking now.

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I wonder what I could do so I won’t get bored silly during term break. Any suggestions?

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I should stop coming home at 2 or 3 or 4 in the morning. It’s unhealthy. It gives me headaches. I should give myself a curfew. Like 12 midnight or something. But I’ll do that after Sheila’s official birthday treat next week. Hehe.

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I want a cheesecake pop.

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I should go now. My Math homework beckons. Ciao.

Murrisch

I’d like to think that I’m a good-natured person. I am usually cheerful or pleasant or friendly but more and more people have been telling me that I’m becoming “suplada”. I kinda noticed it too. I’ve been really grumpy, irritable, moody, sarcastic (even more so), and so on for the past seven months or so. I am easily annoyed and I tend to snap at people when they get on my nerves. I never used to do those kinds of things but I guess my frustrations are starting to leak out of me or whatever. I’m not trying to make excuses for my bad behavior. I know it’s wrong to take your anger out at other people. It’s just that I can’t help my big mouth. I feel so mean. I really don’t want to be but it just so happens that I’ve come across a lot of irritating people lately. I’ve said over and over and over again that I’m not good at verbally asserting myself. I’m really not because I’m afraid of offending other people or hurting other people’s feelings and stuff. But lately, it’s like my mouth has had a life of its own. It says whatever it wants whenever it wants to other people regardless of potentially hurting their feelings. In Tagalog, nambabara na ko ngayon. It’s awful. It really is. I never used to do it before. I made someone cry because of my harshness. I’ve been told that I’m being offensive (probably because I told him that his species disgusts me or something to that effect). I’ve gotten in verbal spats more times than I can count. It’s like I’m not me anymore. I like being nice to people. I really do. I try my best to be. Because I don’t wanna be tagged as bitchy or whatever. So I’m sorry if you’re one of the people whose heads I bit off. I didn’t mean to be mean. Just keep in mind that I wouldn’t have been so nasty if you hadn’t been so callous yourself. I’m trying to be a good person again. Work with me here.

La Salle vs Ateneo..

When I was a La Sallian froshie, I didn't get to watch any UAAP Men's Basketball games live because the schedules always coflicted with classes.

When I was a sophomore, I didn't get to watch games because we were suspended from the UAAP.

But we're back now.

Tomorrow, I'll be watching a UAAP basketball game not from a Studio 23 broadcast but live at the Araneta Coliseum for the first time.

What's even more ecxiting about tomorrow's game is that it's between us and our so called arch rivals, the Ateneo Blue Eagles.

I guess I'm not the only one who's hyped up about tomorrow's game because tickets were already sold out the same day they started being sold even if we were only allowed to buy one ticket per person.

And the lines were un-freaking-believable.

Some of my friends were there early and they let me squeeze in line with them. (Thanks, Les&Jem! ^_^ )

I really hope we win tomorrow (what person doesn't want her team to wi, anyways?) or at least put up a really good fight.
I can't wait.

See you at the Araneta.

Animo La Salle!

The End of an Epic Tale..

“We now present the seventh and final installment in the epic tale of Harry Potter.”

July 21, 2007.

Harry Potter fans all over the globe would always remember this day.

It was the day when one of the greatest stories ever told came to a close.

After years and years of waiting, it finally came out.

We’re all going to find out how Harry’s story ends.

I was one of the many who got up extra early because the National Bookstore in which I reserved my copy about a month ago would open at 7 am just to accommodate those who want to claim their copies of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows as soon as possible.

The book is not inexpensive. I had to save up for it. I’ve never saved up for anything in my life before. But I did it for this because I’ve been waiting for this book to come out ever since I read Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone six years ago. I wanted to finish it before anyone could spoil the story for me again (I read book six about two weeks after the release date. Somebody inadvertently let slip that this character would die. It ruined the book’s suspense for me.)

Anyways, it’s all worth it.

I started reading at around 8 am.

I finished it at 1 am.

37 chapters.

759 pages.

17 hours of nonstop reading.

I may have to have my glasses refracted after this.

But I couldn’t help it.

It was like somebody put a Permanent Sticking Charm to fuse my hands to the book.

It’s very exhausting to read through it, though.

Not because it’s long or whatever but because the author has a way of really pulling you into the story and making it seem as if you were there, in the midst of it all.

She posed about a hundred thousand questions at the first few chapters that you’d begin to wonder if the remaining chapters are sufficient for her to answer each and every one of them.

Well, you’ll just have to see for yourself.

If you haven’t read Harry Potter yet, I strongly suggest that you do. You’re seriously missing out on something, I tell you. Start from the first book. I know the page numbers get intimidating as the series progresses but I assure you that, after you read one, you’ll be asking for more pages.

It’s awesome.

It really is.

God bless J.K Rowling.

The woman is a genius.

Curiosity Killed this Kat..

You found out about it last Wednesday.

The thing that you’ve been dreading since March has happened at last.

You knew it would.

You were hoping you were wrong but you weren’t.

Nothing prepared you for the fresh surge of anger, frustration, and resentment towards the person who has been making your life a living hell for the past six months or so.

You hate this feeling.

You hate that person.

At least you’re trying to.

Or maybe you shouldn’t.

Because hate is just as contaminating as love.

You still think about that person, wondering what’s the best way make him feel as miserable as you are.

Which is wrong, you know.

Wrong because you know how much it effing sucks to be this miserable.

You know how much it hurts that you wouldn’t wish it on another person.

Except maybe him.

Selfish thoughts start penetrating your consciousness.

“It’s unfair for him to be this happy when he was the one who caused me misery. Why am I not the happy one? I thought Karma worked the other way around.”

You know it’s wrong. You do.

You’re just trying to find some comfort in your thoughts.

It has, after all, been more than six months.

You’ve been enduring pain for far too long.

Some solace would be nice.

Letting go would ease your burden, you know that, right?

You just don’t know how.

Not when every waking moment is haunted by memories.

Not when your thoughts are filled with questions.

Was it all for real?

Or was I really, as my best friend so eloquently put it, “played”?

You marvel at your own vulnerability and stupidity.

You can’t believe how pathetic you are, can you?

You feel ashamed of yourself.

Stop that.

It’s him who should be ashamed of himself.

He was the one who lured you into this festering hellhole of feelings and questions.

He lied to you.

He hurt you.

Not physically, of course.

No, the pain he caused you is much more painful and harder to recover from.

Thank God you have good friends.

Your friends have been great.

It’s all a matter of time before you look back at all this and manage to laugh at your foolhardiness.

It’s all a matter of time before Karma finds its due course.

It’s all just a matter of time.

Top 10 Unintentionally Worst Company URL..

I was browsing through my old emails when I came across this one. It was posted in one of my yahoogroups and I found it amusing so I decided to share it with you. ^_^

The top 10 unintentionally worst company URL
Everyone knows that if you are going to operate a business in today’s world you need a domain name. It is advisable to look at the domain name selected as other see it and not just as you think it looks. Failure to do this may result in situations such as the following (legitimate) companies who deal in everyday humdrum products and services but clearly didn’t give their domain names enough consideration:

1. A site called ‘Who Represents’ where you can find the name of the agent that represents a celebrity. Their domain name… wait for it…is

whoRepresents. com

2. Experts Exchange, a knowledge base where programmers can exchange advice and views at
[url=http:// expertsexchange. com]

3. Looking for a pen? Look no further than Pen Island at
[url=http:// ww.penisland. net]

4. Need a therapist? Try Therapist Finder at
[url=http:// ww.therapistfind er.com]

5. Then of course, there’s the Italian Power Generator company…
ww.powergenitalia. com

6. And now, we have the Mole Station Native Nursery, based in New South Wales:
[url=http:// ww.molestationnu rsery.com]

7. If you’re looking for computer software, there’s always
[url=http:// ww.ipanywhere. com]

8. Welcome to the First Cumming Methodist Church. Their website is
[url=http:// ww.cummingfirst. com]

9. Then, of course, there’s these brainless art designers, and their
whacky website:
[url=http:// www.speedofart. com]

10. Want to holiday in Lake Tahoe? Try their brochure website at
[url=http:// www.gotahoe. com]

Stasis

“Never believe a man who promises you forever because it is philosophically and biologically impossible.”

Our Litelec professor told us that last meeting. The promise of forever is the promise of stasis/stagnation. You can’t remain in a particular moment forever. You either descend or ascend. When you reach the climax (or the peak) you eventually have to start descending. When you achieve the object of your desire, the desire goes away because, duh, you already have it. You stop desiring the moment you achieve your desire. Let’s say you were craving for sushi. The moment you eat sushi, you stop craving for it because your desire has already been fulfilled. I think this holds more truth more than we are willing admit especially those who are in love. I mean, like it or not, your feelings will wane at one point or another. That’s why relationships take work.

I was going through my journal when I came across an entry that I wrote a few months back when I was trying to recover from a break-up. Here’s an excerpt. Don’t read it if you don’t like pessimism and bitterness.

I read Meg Cabot’s ‘Every Boy’s Got One’ again last week and one of the characters, Cal Langdon, mentions phenylethylamine (I hope I spelled it right). The body releases this kind of chemical when one is in love. That’s what gives you the feeling of giddiness, euphoria, and whatnot. It’s like a drug, actually. After a while, the body develops a kind of resistance to its effects so the ‘kilig’ goes away.

I’m being too pessimistic, aren’t I?

Hard not to be when you’ve gone through what I have. But whatever.

You have to think hard (I mean really, really, really hard) before you enter into a relationship. Don’t let phenylethylamine render you stupid. Just because you feel giddy when that person is around doesn’t mean you’re in love.

Some pointers for guys:

Don’t ever tell a girl that you can handle a long distance relationship and then use it as an excuse to break up with her in the end.

Don’t tell a girl the things that you know she wants to hear just to make her agree to become your girlfriend. Not when you don’t intend to stick around.

NEVER EVER tell a girl that you will love her forever because you and I both know that you are lying. The worst part is that she might actually believe you and pour her heart and soul into the relationship and, in the end, when it’s all become too boring for you (in Tagalog, NAGSAWA KA), you break up with her. You have no idea how frustrating this is unless it has actually happened to you. The person who promised you forever walks away unscathed because all he gave you was a promise. He didn’t lose anything. Just words. But the person whom you promised forever to? She gave you her heart. She gave you her soul. Those are not easy to get back because they are just as intangible as words but they take effort and they take commitment. She promised you nothing but she gave you her everything, in other words. Does that mean nothing to you? Apparently, it does not.
Just goes to prove my assumption that most men are heartless jerks.

Heartless.
Jerks.

Not all of them.

But most of them are.

Sure, he loves you now.

Focus on the word now.

It’s temporary. It’s fleeting. It won’t last for long.

Magsasawa din yan sa ‘yo.

Sure, he’s sweet and kind and nice when he’s courting you.

Duh, he’s courting you.

Of course he’ll show you his good side.

Just wait till you see his other side.

Good luck to us girls because, while there may be plenty of fish in the sea, most of them are rotten. You’re lucky if you get a good catch.

Happy fishing!

I guess I don't need to explain that I was livid when I wrote this. But there you go.

Triple Seven


Yesterday was considered by the superstitious as the luckiest day of the millennium because it was July 7, 2007: 7-07-07. There was a scramble to secure lotto tickets, casinos were full to bursting, an overwhelming number of weddings took place, and so on.

I’m not really the superstitious type but I tend to fall into the bandwagon every once in a while. I mean, you have nothing to lose, right?

Yesterday was undoubtedly a good day for La Sallians because the Green Archers won by 21 points against the UP Maroons in the 1st basketball game of the 70th season of the UAAP. I wasn’t able to watch it live because tickets were sold out by the time I decided to buy. I was only able to watch the first few minutes on Studio 23 because I promised one of my roommates that I’d go to Greenhills with her. Too bad. But then again, that’s what replays were invented for. At least we won. Yey!!

We have discovered that it only costs a hundred and twenty bucks to take a cab from our dorm to Greenhills. Looks like we’ll be going there more often. I don’t mind. I love Greenhills. Especially the Fully Booked in Promenade. Four floors of books, books, and more books. It’s a bookworm’s paradise.
After my roommate wore her wallet out at the tiangges, she and I decided to search for the newly opened Krispy Kreme at Greenhills because neither of us have ever tried their world-famous doughnuts. We wanted to see what we were missing so we kept searching despite the rain. We had almost given up looking and were about to hail a cab when we saw a tarp pointing to where Krispy Kreme was. Lucky, right?

I had Krispy Kreme for the first time in my life yesterday. I’m a big fan Gonuts Donuts which were, allegedly, copied from Krispy Kreme so I’ve been wanting to try them since the first store opened in Taguig. I never got the chance until yesterday. Krispy Kreme doughnuts are only slightly better than Gonuts Donuts. They’re both good. The major difference is the price. Krispy Kreme Doughnuts cost 38 pesos each while Gonuts are more affordable at 20 something. And there are more Gonuts stores and they are much more accessible than Krispy Kreme which only has three branches (Taguig, Megamall, Greenhills). But, like my economics professor always says, a good that is least available tends to have a higher demand (or something to that effect). Anways, if you haven’t tried Krispy Kreme yet, I recommend the Sour Cream glazed. I know it sounds weird but it’s really yummy, I promise.

That’s pretty much how my day went yesterday.

How was your 7-07-07?

When was your last FIRST?

When we were kids, our parents were obssessed with all our "firsts". I don't know about your folks but I'm a first-born child so my parents documented everything from my first haircut up to my first footsteps, first birthday, first words, first day of pre-school, first medal, anyways you get the picture.

I'm sure you've noticed that, as we grow up, these firsts become a rarity. The more you do something, the more it becomes integrated into your everyday routine. Like walking, for instance. I'm sure your parents went gaga over your first few footsteps but you've done it so much after those initial ones that it's no longer a big deal.

The question is: When was the last time that you did something for the first time?
I first saw this question in a tv ad. I forgot what product the ad is for but I'm pretty sure it has something to do with cars. Or electronics. Whatever. Anyways, it got me thinking. When was the las time I did something for the first time?

The answer to that is June 2, 2007.

It happened at my aunt's house in Quezon City. I ate tuyo for the first time in my life. No kidding. It might seem perplexing to you especially if you know that I grew up in the province. I mean, there is an endless supply of tuyo in our province, that's for sure. When I was in elementary and high school, tuyo would sometimes be served alongside the usual longganisa, scrambled eggs, and fried rice for breakfast but I never tried it. Not because I'm "pa-sosyal" or whatever but because I genuinely had no idea how to eat it. I would watch my grandmother or my aunts or my cousins eat tuyo, thinking "how are they eating that, it's practically just bones?". I never mustered up enough courage to ask for instructions for fear of being ridiculed. Besides, I thought I was too big for my lola to, in tagalog, "himay" the tuyo for me. In other words, I never really tried.

Last Saturday, I was right in time for dinner when I got to my tita's place. There was adobo on the table so I was a happy person. We had just begun eating when my cousins' yaya placed a plate full of tuyo on the table. Everybody just went for it. Really, I mean everbody. Even my littlest cousin ate tuyo. My curiosity got the better of me so I decided to give it a try.

"First time ko kumain ng tuyo," I boldly announced to the whole table.

My cousins just stared at me.

"I'm serious," I insisted.

Then they just laughed.

"Sosyal! La Salista kasi eh," one of them said.

"Hindi ah! Di lang talaga ko marunong kumain," I said in my defense. "Pano ba kasi?" I prompted.

"Watch and learn," said one of my cousins then she proceeded to instruct me.

So that's how I ate tuyo for the first time.

The End.

It might seem like a simple thing to most people but that incident made me realize that I really am starting to grow old (I know, eighteen's not really THAT old but you know what I mean). I want to start doing more things that I heaven't tried before. Like try out for the Green Archer fencing team or something like that. I'm starting to run out of firsts so I want to make sure that when I do something for the first time, it will be worth storing in my memory bank.

Blahblahblah..

I am bored out of my mind. It's only the third week of classes which would explain why my life is not as hectic as it usually is during midterms or finals. It's weird though, because I hardly stay put. I'm always doing something. I always have to be doing something because if I stay put long enough, I could go bonkers. I can't help it, I am just easily bored. I have a very short attention span. If it doesn't pique my interest, my mind just goes wandering off to other things. This is a major problem that I am trying to figure out how to control. It's especially hard when I am in a class that I don't like.

Speaking of classes...

I only have five subjects this term. And if that isn't enough to make full-loaders envy me, all those five subjects happen to be floating subjects. Before you start chucking tomatoes in my direction, let me just say that there was no way for me to enroll in major subjects this term because I just shifted to ISE last term. Anyways, it's not a story that I feel like telling right now.

Where was I before I so rudely interrupted myself?

Oh, yeah. Subjects. I have five this term and they are: ALGE101 (Algebra), GENDERS (Gender Studies), PHILPER (Philosophy of Person), INTOECO (Introduction to Economics), and LITELEC (Literature Elective).

I don't even wanna talk about ALGEBRA. There is a reason why I am in the College of Liberal Arts and not the College of Engineering, you know. Math is my worst subject. It really is. It just doesn't come naturally to me, that's all. If i had been gifted at solving mind boggling equations, I probably would have wanted to become an Architect (if I had been given the ability to draw, too, which, unfortunatley, I haven't) or an Engineer or a Rocket Scientist or whatever. But, alas, I suck at Math. Which is why I dream of becoming a Lawyer. You don't need to be a Math whiz to pass the bar exams, that's for sure. My ALGE101 professor seems like a nice lady but I am quite intimidated by her because, apart from teching part time at DLSU, she teaches full time at another university here in Manila. And, get this, she teaches graduate school engineering. My jaw practically dropped when she told us this. But she's been really nice so far. She's very approachable. She does tend to teach a little too fast every once in a while but she's always ready to entertain questions.

GENDERS is one of my favorite subjects. According to my prof, only La Salle has a Genders Studies course. Just in case you're not familliar with the subject, let me give you a short description: Gender Studies deals with issues regarding Human Sexuality, Sex, Sexual Orientation, and the like. It looks at these topics through a Biological and a Social perspective. It's very informative. You have to have a fairly mature mind in order to view the topics in an intellectual perspective. That, according to my prof, is why the subject isn't open for freshmen. My prof this term is a brilliant woman. She's very smart and it shows in the way that she discusses topics in class. She's funny, too. Which is why I like Genders. It's never a boring subject.

PHILPER is the second Philosophy course that we are required to take. I'm not too fond of Philosophy but it's an ok subject. I like it well enough.

INTOECO is Introduction to Economics. It's a pre-requisite to my majors so I have to do well in this class. It's not so bad. I used to find economics boring but now, it interests me. It has to because I have to take International Political Economy, European Economics, and so on in the terms to follow. I like our professor here, too, because she's good at explaining concepts and she's quite funny as well.

LITELEC is the Literature Elective for non-literature majors. My lit elective is called PICTURA. I wanted to be in the Harry Potter class but it ran out of slots so I got shunted to Pictura. Pictura has something to do with the paragonal relationship between the sister arts of painting and poetry. Basically, we shall discuss poems based on artworks like paintings, sculptures, and so on. It sounds boring, I know. But it's not. My professor is an internationally acclaimed poet. She's amazing. Her passion for literature is evident in the way that she talks in class. She's really cool. We have to do a lot of writing exercises in class which I don't mind because the intelligence that I lack in Math, I make up for in English (all humility aside).

That's it.

I apologize for boring you if you actually finished the whole thing.

I just don't have a lot to do today.

That's why I did this.

Tchuss for now then.